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When a person is faced with life changing, earth shaking ideas, it seems that all they know can be easily torn down. This is my experience of late.

In my world, asking questions is of great value. To be in a community that does not allow questioning is unacceptable to me. However, one must also find the balance between questioning for questions sake, and giving into the concept of mystery when the time is right.

God is that mystery. If there is any one thing I have come to know and embrace in the past fourteen years, it is that he just may be beyond reasonable knowledge. This thought has played a vital role in my life because, If God makes perfect sense one hundred percent of the time, then I have achieved “it”. If he makes perfect sense always, then I have “arrived”. And lets be honest, if you know me, you know I am no where near this so-called arrival.

How do we, those who are entertaining a relationship with God, or those who are deeper than just “trying spirituality on for size” strike this balance between the seemingly hopeless and distant “arrival” of pure understanding, while also coming to terms with knowing pure understanding may not come in our earthly life time? It seems though, that this question may be missing the mark entirely. Is pure understanding of God’s character what we should be after? Or, is the simplest act of hearing him?

The bible is a book full of people’s stories; of their encounters with God; of his people hearing him, or not hearing him. This should be a clue for us. We have been given this book of life testimonies which show that “God says one thing, we do another.” And throughout the bible we see again and again that God speaks. It seems to me that the more important thing than asking questions is striving to hear God. If we do this, his character will be revealed, but even more so, a right relationship will be born so even in the midst of life and understanding being torn apart, his constant voice will answer those deep questions that plague us.